Monday, August 14, 2006

Sunday at Justins new church...

I was greeted by Mark, and then the Pastors wife came over and talked to me for a bit, and then Pastor Covill came and talked to me also. Just about what I did and such. If I lived in Regina. Just the basic stuff.That was all kewl, I sat in the back row thinking it was all good, as I was sweating like a hog. Man was I ever. Shirt right soaked haha. Then we all start singing, yup I actually started singing and clapping to the music, good stuff.

Then my hunny was right, here comes da lady right around the whole place dancing, nearly pulled my bench/pew over when she turned the corners haha, Good times, after that Pastor Covill starting preaching, he preached about drugs, and alcoholism and how they are being dragged down, that the devil is winning them over and we gotta help them. Bring them back to God. And to do that we have to give them a helping hand and tell them. Show them the way.

Pastor Covill then went on about how people use people, like pimps use hookers, they take everything about them away, he then went on to chat about the Holy Ghost and talking in tongue, and baptism. That when you have the Holy Ghost, you can heal, you can make miracles happen, by just a touch. You can heal the sick. God heals not the doctors. Just all he talked about me and my hunny pretty much have talked about, its like wow, total craziness.

After that he had alter call to pray, I just sat in my seat,until Mark came up to me and asked me to go and pray at the alter with him, so I did go up there, Mark said he would pray with me, while I was praying Mark put his hand on my back and right there, I felt the most incredible feelings, it was like wow, and then another person put there hand on my shoulder.back to, and wow it was intense. I felt so amazing, I never felt that feeling ever before. Just could feel Gods presence soo much, Like WOW., I then got up to go back to my seat and nearly fell over, I had to hold the pews/benches so I never, I just felt so incredible, a feeling I cant quite explain. So intense, I could just feel Gods presence soo much, His luv for us, and everything, Praise the Lord.

Ohh yea :p Pastor Covill sure did make me red, haha, made me sweat 20 times more then I thought I could, bringing up about Misty and I, haha.All I can say is that experience I had today, was soo wonderful, so amazing, I luved it soo much.
Yup every sunday I will be attending church at 630pm :) :) :)

This was what Justin told me about church last nite. :)

Friday, August 11, 2006

This is what Justin wrote to me on our 7th Month anniversary!!!

On this day marks the 7 month anniversary of Misty Lynn and Justin Marshall, happily in luv, they fit soo well together its amazing.

Its amazing how they both can see everything in each others eyes. Sharing everything together, doing everything together, helping each other achieve there goals, they are living there dreams, teaching each other new things.

What else you ask can they see in each others eyes, here is more:
A nice home, a beautiful 3 bedroom bungalow filled with a warm luving family. 4 children, 2 boys 2 girls. A nice car sitting in the driveway. He has a career he always wanted and is supporting his family 200%. She is a stay at home mom looking after the kids while dad is at work. She is an amazing mother. As he is an amazing father, there each and every possible minute he can be for his family.


Its just so amazing, so wonderful. He can hardly wait till it all begins.

They have learned soo much about each other, taught each other many new things the other didnt know, they help guide each other. They take the words out of each others mouths all the time. Finishing each others sentences.


I made wishes all the time and still do, and each and everyday I am with my princess, every single wish comes true.

All she does for me, I am so thankful for, all the txts, emails, poems, ecards, kind hearted words, her singing. All of it, I luv and adore with all my heart. She is like a diamond, Very rare and very precious.

I was told to hold her close, hold her tight, and thats what I shall do for as long as I live. I made her promises, and I never make a promise I dont intend to keep, I made a promise to be by her side for the rest of my life, I made that promise to two people, God and her. And it is a promise I am gonna stand by.

Each and everyday, is so amazing with her, so wonderful. I have never been this happy. I am so peaceful and so relaxed being with her, Its like WOW. Like a real life fairy tale. A dream come true. I can feel her luv for me immensely. WOW.

How much she cares for me, she cares about my health, my safety, just everything. I just get so speechless, and in awe, cause I really havent had a person other then a family member, care about me the way she does, I can feel it so much. Thats why I keep myself out of dangers way.

I care deeply for her to, like wow, she is soo precious. I always make sure she is safe and that she is feeling well. I dont recall ever caring so much for a young lady as much as I do her.
She is just soo amazing, there isnt enough words, enough paper, to say it all or write it all.
Kind hearted, sincere, trusting, passionate, charming, funny, romantic, giving, spiritual, beautiful and the list goes on and on. I could just not explain it all.


She is an amazing Christian, She has taught me all I know about God. She taught me how to pray, how to get to heaven, taught me about the bible, thank you soo much Misty Lynn for all of it.

You had made a tremendous impact on my life, You changed me for the better, she made the man I always wanted to be but never knew how to, I now see a person I never knew existed now that I stand behind her. The most amazing girlfriend I could ever have.

I thank God each and everynite for her, for blessing our luv each and everyday.

Thank You Jesus for looking after us, keeping us both healthy, keeping us safe. I luv you soo much, I Honor You and Praise You for all You do for us each and everyday.

Happy 7 month Anninversary hunny.

You mean the world to me to, just everything, like wow, words cannot express it enough how much luv I have for you.

WOW, when you said that on msn tonite,it hit home, i felt it deep inside my heart. A feeling I have never felt before.

These feelings I feel are so incredible like wow, at times they make me wanna cry. Cause of who I have in my life. This girl is so amazing, in all she does, and who she has made of me. I stand Proud beside her, cause in my heart, I know I am standing beside the most amazing girl I could have in my life.

I luv you always and forever Misty Lynn and not a day less.

With all my luv

Your hunny

Justin Marshall

God Bless Our Luv on our 7 month anniversary

God Bless Misty Lynn

Cheers, to Our 7 month. Muah muah muah muah muah muah muah

And many more to come

Friday, August 04, 2006

Doncha love being sick in the middle of summer :S

And another post...

Soo whats going on peeps?

Hmmm me just chillin around being sick lately. Last nite I went in the pool!! Woot woot
That sure was a fun time. Mom and Tina and I, at 11pm swimmin in the boulevards lol haha.
Good times had by all...hehe

I miss Ashley I should text her...Hmmm see how things are going on up in Ontario without me :(
Oh and I miss Aaron and Ryan and Trisha too...

Jen called me last nite. I miss her aswell.

Ohhhhhh And Berley called me too(Kim) aww man I miss Berley shes soo sweet. She is such an awesome best friend.

I guess that I am in a missing mood rite now.

I love cheese....mmmmm cheddar cheese.

Tomorrow afternoon I believe that Mom,Jocelyn,Katey and I are going to go up to Kingston and go swimming again. Im really pumped for that as we went last Sunday after church and the water was beautiful. I can't wait woot woot woot woot.

Then there is church on Sunday. Yay church.

I need a touch from God. I kinda feel far away from Him lately. I'm trying my best to live for God just sometimes life gets ya down and such ya know.

Im gunna finish watching Pirates of the Carribean today with Justin. :) awww what a cutey.
Maybe even the second one too. ;)

Well Im gunna go and eat now. Im starving

Chow for now

Thursday, July 27, 2006

Guess what!!!


Hmmm lets see Im done working at robins now. Get paid in a couple weeks they say. So thats nice. Elaine worked my back end off last nite while she was taking 5 breaks and not helping me at all. I didn't even get a break in my 7hours that I worked last nite. Argh salty crackers.
Halley came after work and picked me up and we went uptown to the Harbour Passage to walk with...Neil,Tanya,Kaylyn,Ashley,Alex,Derek and Vicki. It was fun although I just kinda wanted to go home and rest as I was super sore and everything from work. But thats all done and now Im not sore its all good. :)

I babysitt on Saturday for Todd and Shyanne. So I will not be attending the wedding of the year. I guess its not that big of a deal to me since we have only talked about 2-3 times since last year. And the conversations were pretty sad. Nothing to brag about.

I want one of my friends that are married to get pregnant soon as I want a little one to spoil as Kaylyn is starting to get bigger and I need a wee one to spoil again. hehe

This Sunday is Fifth Sunday at church so there is only one service its at 11am. So I don't know what I will be doing Sunday afternoon but hopefully some people will wanna hangout or something.

Well thats about if for now.

Oh I cooked a sweet meal for my Dad and I tonite for dinner. It was Pork Loin Roast and Roasted potatoes and some corn. mmmmm it was soooo good. *licks lips* hehe I think that I just might go back and get seconds in the next little while here. hehe

K Im out for real now

Toodles





Sunday, July 23, 2006

...

So Ash,Ry and Aaron finally came over and we watched Cars and it was a swell time eating popping popcorn and drank pop. :P And it didn't even skip in my dvd player so there! haha lol
Then we watched some old time hockey from the year when my mamma was born...1964.
Also watched some punk music videos. Man there was one guy that had like 3 gotee's it was insane!! Then watched some stupid show and April/Erma(not sure which one)called and they all departed...

I cleaned up did all the dishes that we dirtied.(sp?) Vaccummed and now am online talking to Justin! :) He's such a great kid!!! I could just squeeze him to death. hehe

Well folks thats about it for now. Just wanted to finish up the nite and tell ya'll what's going on in ma life.

Oh rite....I sang for like 2 hours this afternoon for someone... :P Oh I wonder who that was...

Saturday, July 22, 2006

Parttime stinks sometimes...lol

So I got my schedule yesterday for work...

I only work two shifts next week! :S Wednesday and Thursday 4-9pm thats all!!! Like wow Im making pretty much minimum wage So small small paychecks coming to me:P haha! I might have to ditch this job as they can't guarntee hours they now said to me after they hire me argh!!

So what happened yesterday...went to the church talked to my pastor about somethings and such just kinda told him exactly how Im feeling about things and such. I love Pastor Kennedy he's such an amazing Pastor. So then I hungout with Ryan for a little bit then he drove me up to Shawn's house and I hungout with Cheryl and Shawn then they went to the mall and I didn't feel well so I went to the church and had some prayer myself and just fooled around abit. Then went to prayer and afterwards the Moonyay's dropped me off at Ryan and Aarons house.
We went to Domino's to get some pizza to eat during the movie. But the movie was being all gay and such and wouldn't work for us. So they drove me home...

Oh man They had to let me off down the road by Rickys store as the road was blocked off cause there was a gas leak that blew up a house across the street from my house. Its sad cause a kitten died but all the kids got out. 4 of them I believe and a single mother. I wanna help that family out somehow as they have nothing now. I may give some money or see what I can do to contribute to the family as they are now living in a hotel rite now. :( sooo sad.

Came home and pretty much just crashed and went to bed and talked to Justin. :)

Today I cleaned my hinney off...did a load of clothes and I washed my bedding and such...Cleaned up my room just have to sweep and mop and dust. But thats for another day as I am pooped already. Now Im just waiting for Ryan,Aaron and Ash to show up as we are going to watch Cars. :) woot woot woot!

Thats about it for now toodles!!!

Friday, July 21, 2006

Sometimes doing the right thing might be hard to deal with...

So Its another Friday and Im just chilling rite now til I go out to the church and things...

Gunna go hangout with Cheryl and Shawn later afterwards,prayer then maybe see if Ryan and Aaron wanna hangout for a bit or something... Other than that its pretty much how my day is going to be spent.

Last nite I taught Justin a biblestudy..."The Pentecostal Experience". He understood it really well He said and now knows that it is essential to be baptised in Jesus name and he knows that he needs to get the Holy Ghost to make it to heaven. :) He had some questions after the 2 hour biblestudy...I answered them the best I knew how to. But Im really excited though as he's gunna start going to church on Sundays in two weeks! :) Thank You Jesus!! :)

Oh and Ally showed up at my place around 8pm last night and we hungout for a wee bit it was really nice! I miss that kid alot. *Sniff sniff* Sometimes I miss the old Misty and Alex (the crazy ones) that just always had a ton of fun...

Anyways...

Well I have to leave in about 5 mins so I should get going...

Just wanted to say alittle something on the good ol' blog again...

God Bless Ya'll

Misty Lynn

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

And then the Lord spoke!

Notes taken by moi...

**To get your victory sometimes you have to go through some "ca ca".

**If God gives you something(ie..spiritual thing or something) The devil or no one can take it from you unless you give it to them.

**Have we let go of our victories...Like what happened that really changed our past and we got over??? Ie:Long hair,makeup,pornography,keeping urself pure,drugs,alcohol...
Did we give back in...???


**To overcome depression and things you need to praise God through it all!!!

**We need to take back Our Victory.

**When you praise and worship anything can happen


So those were the key points and notes that I took while Ryansh was preaching tonite in youth. He did a great job even though He wouldn't admit it.
God moved mightly and spoke to us through the gift of tongues and interpretation. It was really good.
He pretty much said to us that we have to be willing to come to Him and give Him everything and that He won't force us to live for Him. He wants us to live for Him cause we want to. He said that he will be there for us. He also said that if we didn't have Him we would be nothing...

All I know is that I don't want to be a nothing...I want to be a something for God and do his work!

God is sooo amazing. He never ceases to amaze me.

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After a church we(Ryan,Aaron,April,Erma and I) went to Pizza Delight for some good eats. Fun was had by all!

I want to go to Ontario soooo bad I have to pray that somehow I can get the money and go I need at least 350.00 dollars to go and some spending money I think. I also started a new job and I can't go away as I can't get the time off so if I can get another job before I go away I shall go to Ontario!

Well thats about it for now.

God Bless You All!!

Misty Lynn

Monday, July 17, 2006

Halley has my skirt! : O

Hello everyone tonite is my last nite for staying up late for a wee bit since I gots a new job and all at RD! Which for all ya'll that don't know is Robins Donuts!!

Only thing is that I switched jobs and such and now I don't think that I can go to Ontario with the Shep's/Sayeau and the rest of the gang! Arghy!! Totally bites but thats the way the cookie crumbles...

My plans are to start saving money up and pay off this computer first off and then get a new computer chair as this one is not working for me. Making me go sit on my bed for more comfort on the tush. lol

Then saving money to move out! I lived on my own well with a roommate for a year or so in 2004. I pretty much have everything that I need to live on my own or with someone maybe...All I need is a new table and chairs as mine are pretty old now...and coffee and end tables and maybe another chair for my apt. I have everything else! :) I just need outta this house ya know! On my own for a bit again. Although I would like to live out east but now my job is in the North end...so unless something comes up that I can work out east thats not going to work as I don't want to have to travel all the time and such.

Who knows might go out west for a bit get outta here and it would be an experience eh!!! Meet new people and new things. But still go to church out there obviously.

I also wanna get my license and then eventually in the next year or so get meself a car! :) Wouldn't that be swell :)

Saturday a bbq and bonfire happened at Halley Mawhinneys house. Good times had by all. There sure wasn't 27 people though. I almost died too walking down this cliff to get to the beach on these HUGE rocks. Man it was soo scary...was it ever!!!

God what is Ur will for my life...U wanna tell me anytime soon??? Just curious thats all!

Well Im getting a wee bit tired now...

I miss Jenna!!! *sniff sniff*

God Bless You All!!!!

Misty Lynn

Sunday, July 16, 2006

Woot!

After telling people off at Aliant and making them come out today to fix my pc and then saying God Bless...

Its now all fixed!! Compy is now up and running! :)

Woot woot

God Bless You All!

Saturday, July 15, 2006

Aliant is Gay!

So today I reformatted my pc for the second time in two days..argh!
Its got nothing to do with my pc its all Aliant's fault! Im totally switching over to rogers soon cause this is retarded. Its the same complications that I had with them over 2 months ago! Im fet up with it all!

Argh!

Not to mention that I am super sad with my life rite now...I feel as if its not going anywheres. I mean Im sooo confused...I just want God's will for my life but sometimes its soo hard to see His will over what I want for my life. I need to trust Him alittle more I think. I need God soo much rite now. I just wish that He would come down here and slap me in the face and tell me what Im suppose to do and everything would be alrite.

*sniff*

I know I have some people that I can talk to about things such as this just sometimes its hard to open up about it all...

Sometimes I just think I wanna leave and start over or go to Bibleschool or go on Aim or something like that...Or just maybe God wants me to stay here in Saint John. Im not sure anymore. Im soo confused. I want to know God's will for my life like now its hard waiting...

Sunday, July 02, 2006

I'll be alrite!!!

I think that Im going to be okay I just have to realize that she is in a better place now and isn't suffering.

I have cried my tears and even I will admit I was upset with God this afternoon but I realize that God knows what he is doing. So who am I to judge even though I sure don't understand why He took my aunt.

I just need to start to move forward even though its going to be a hard time.

Misty Lynn

Saturday, July 01, 2006

And now shes gone :'(

R.I.P. Aunt Heather know that I love u sooo much!
Your neice Misty Lynn♥

My aunt is dying and there is nothing I can do...

Last nite I got the call saying that she has minutes,hours up to 4 days to live.
I've prayed for her.
I regret alot of things.
I'm not myself anymore.

I need someone to talk to! But I don't know who to trust anymore... :'(

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Mmmm...Cheese fries!!!

So today consisted of not a whole lot...well...

There was church and that was great. We sang Happy Birthday to Neil and I swear(which I really don't swear) but it sounds like Paul said something else other than "Neil Josselyn Youth Pastor"..it was sooo funny.

So it was a commitment service and we all committed some stuff before God tonite. It was a good time. :)
After church we went out to DQ something different and Halley cause he is such a doll paid for my meal. We had a cheeseburger meal and then a chocolate dipped cone with chocolate icecream inside. Mmmm soooo good!

Then Ryan,Aaron,Halley and I proceeded back to Mike and Liz Longs house to play phase 10. Ryan spanked us in the game. :P What a guy. Aaron and Ryan ganged up on Halley and I,I guess that they didn't want us to win the game or actually I think that they just did it for kicks.

So then Aaron and Ry drove me home and thats about it.

I still can't hear outta my left ear though. Argh! I think that I am going to have to go to the doc's tomorrow to see if I can get it seringed out or something. Pray for me cause I am sooo deaf in one ear. Ahhhhhh

Oh and on Canada day I guess Im going out with Kate and a butt load of people and we are going camping and I needs to bring some videls.
So that will be the way I will be celebrating my Canada day this year! Woot woot!!
Fireworks here we come!!!

Oh and apparently there is Summer Summitt up in Fredericton this weekend. I would like to go on Sunday nite but I don't really have a way. Now if someone has room in their car and is reading this let me know and I will help pay for some gas.

Thats all for now folks.

Sunday, June 25, 2006

You are my everything and I will adore you...

Time to update again.

I guess I haven't updated cause I haven't really had much go on in my life lately.

I got a new job yet again but I hate it so the second day of working there I applied at 17 other places cause the pay that I am getting just isn't worth it. So Im praying that I get something new :)

Umm Wednesday nite and Friday nite I went over to Mike and Liz's house to play Phase 10 with Halley,Neil and Tanya. Alex was there too but she didn't play. It was fun. Oh and on Friday nite we sure didn't eat a whole cake between us all. Mmmm it was sooo good!

Tonite I went out with Halley and we went to Millies place and Shawn was there too Hes really a nice guy. I like him alot he's hilarious. We played Swap and Catch Phrase. Me and Millie won Catch Phrase against Halley and Shawn. Haha Girl Power! lol
Then we decided to be heathens and go and play pool we played two games and Me and Halley were on a team and Millie and Shawn were on another team. We sure didn't get spanked actually they were both two close games just one ball left on the table each time. I got madd skillz at pool. Ha!

So thats pretty much everything thats been going on in my life.

Oh if anyone ever reads this pray for Shawn McGuires Mom she is not doing so well shes in the hospital and the doctors have given her days to live. :( soo sad.

Hmmm what else.

Oh I host tomorrow morning then I praise sing tomorrow nite at alter call. So thats exciting!

Im tired now its 2am and I need to get up in 6 and a half hours for church!

Peace out A-town!

P.S. Happy Belated Birthday Kaylyn Riley Josselyn and Happy 7 months anniversay for Ryan and Trisha! :D woot woot

Monday, June 12, 2006

How great is Our God

So this weekend consisted of Tay and James wedding. Tay looked beautiful. Sooo pretty. Then going over to the moonyay's house for the nite. We went to sobeys to get stuff for poutine and hotdogs...man that poutine was super good. U rock Steph. hehe
Then we watched "Ice Age 2" It was a pretty good movie other than it said some words which wasn't good for a pixar kids movie. But anyways...after that we played the game "Cars" then oviously the hockey game and Edmonton won 2-1 last nite woot woot. Go Oilers Go!
Then me and Steph watched the last episode of 7th Heaven. Then went to bed :)
Man Isaiah's bed was sooo comfortable I think that I had one of the best sleeps in like forever. It was intense.

Then church happened and Pastor preached on not being fearful of anything and that the only thing that we should fear is "The Fear of God". It was really good. I enjoyed it very much.

Then after church we proceeded back to the Meuniers house for subs and "Over the Hedge" then Cars again..hehe I love that game :) Woot woot Then watched this show on tv called "Doc" with Billy Ray Cyrus in it. I really enjoyed it. But I didn't get to watch it all cause I had to go for choir. We practiced and sang a really good song tonite I loved it. "How Great is Our God"-then went right into "How Great Thou Art" It was sooo powerful. Man was it ever. Like the church just exploded in worship and u could feel God walking up and down the aisles it was sooo amazing. Like wow I felt God sooo amazingly tonite it was awesome. Then God spoke to me through an elder of my church. It was wow man just what I needed to hear. God is sooo good to me I just can't thank Him enough. Thank You Jesus for everything that you do and continue to do for me. :)

Well thats about it for now...

Oh and Edmonton is sooo gunna win in tomorrows game Go Edmonton!!!

Thursday, June 08, 2006

Starts with Goodbye

I was sitting on my doorstep,
I hung up the phone and it fell out of my hand,
But I knew I had to do it,
And he wouldn't understand,
So hard to see myself without him,
I felt a piece of my heart break,
But when you're standing there across the road,
There's a choice you gotta make.


I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
I guess it's gonna bring me down,
The only way you try to find,
Moving on with the rest of your life,
Start to wave goodbye.

I know there's a blue horizon,
Somewhere up ahead, just waiting for me,
Getting there means leaving things behind,
Sometimes life's so bitter sweet.


Time, time heals,
The wounds that you feel,
Somehow, right now.


I guess it's gonna have to hurt,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
I guess it's gonna bring me down,
The only way you try to find,
Moving on with the rest of your life,
Start to wave goodbye,
I guess I'm gonna have to cry,
And let go of some things I've loved,
To get to the other side,
Start to wave goodbye,
The only way you try to find,
Moving on with the rest of your life,
Start to wave goodbye

Sunday, June 04, 2006

So Im 22 they say.

So my Birthday happened.

Im now 22 craziness I don't really feel much older at all.

I had a few friends over not many cause I didn't want anything huge or anything like that. People consisted of Cheryl,Shawn,Jenna,Erin and Ashley. I had a good time I guess it was different from last year when I had Shauna and Adena here I miss them ever so much.

I got gifts hehe Im all about that. lol just kidding I could careless if I get gifts.

Mom bought me the American Idol Encore cd and icecream cake and all the goodies that we had at my party. Thanks Mom I love u ever soo much.
Cheryl and Shawn got me the Daniel Powter cd.
Ashley got me some smelly stuff for the bath and creams and a ty beanie bear. :)
Erin got me flipping sweet Napolean Dynamite mints,ND Lip Balm and a cute thing of note pads from Ardene
Jen got me a 25$ gift certificate for Sheila's Day spa so I will have to think of what to get from there Im pumped though. Ashley got one too cause it was her bday a couple weeks ago so we are going to go and get something doing together. That shall be a fun time. :)

So my belly is full from all the junk that I ate tonite but it was all worth it. hehe

We watched two movies "The date movie, and Rumour Has It." The date movie wasn't a very good movie I don't really recommend it to watch at all. But Rumour Has It was decent. :) We started to watch Over the Hedge but decided 2 movies was enough. hehe

Oh Shauna and Kim both called me up and sang Happy Birthday to me. Thanks girlies. I love yas and miss yas wish that ya's could have been here tonite.

Well its 3am and the girls are all out in the livingroom and spare room sleeping so I shall go to sleep now since I have to get up in less than 5 hours. Argh. lol
But I'll do it cause I love going to church.

Peace Out!

Friday, June 02, 2006

Sad

Friends came over tonite such as Ashley,Aaron,Ryan,Teah and Ashley Ferris to watch the hockey game. Carolina won against Buffalo it was pretty stupid. Gosh. I so wanted Buffalo to win. Oh well. Now Edmonton can beat the tar outta Carolina for the Cup!

I am currently super sad right now I feel sooo sad and lonely and just everything seems to be blah right now I don't even know how to explain it at all. I do know that I am here livin right now thats about it.

I don't understand it all but I just feel like I wanna cry all the time now. I feel like I put on this front about myself that everything is alright but honestly its not. I don't want to be a fake person at all. But I feel as if thats how I am acting or what I am doing. Gosh I hate feeling like this.

*insert me bawling my face off right here* *sniff sniff*

Im gunna go now cause this is pathetic.

I need a hug